August 3, 2024
Chapter 28 | I've heard a lot of good things about this book, and more good things about how Jennette herself reads it, and I was very excited to see the audiobook available at my library. The writing is great, the voice acting is great. The memories are told in a way that makes it easy to connect the pieces. I don't really even know what I can say, this is just excellent personal writing, a great memoir.
Now, the memories themselves... Lol. (Mouse will know what I mean by this, just saying lol when I've been hit with some emotion or traumatic memory or emotional flashback that I just will literally say "lol" out loud to, no laughing involved.) Things are being brought back. My emotionally incestuous relationship with my mom, being a child trying to take on responsibilities to care for the family, keeping track of everyone's emotional state and taking it upon myself to make sure everyone is happy. Different from Jennette McCurdy's experience of course, but similar enough and she tells it well. And I think that's where I will leave it today. I think this is a book I want to get through fast.
August 4, 2024
Chapter 58 | I feel like spinning out. I think a lot of this book is very relevant to things I haven't wanted to think about. Which I think speaks to the power of it, but is. Something lol. I want to get wildly crossed. Grief and blowing up my life and shit like that. Jennette is very real, and I appreciate her honesty, and I want to run from my own.