dear insanity by dpr ian -- this is what the inside of my mind feels like and i've been playing through the entire album at least once when i drive. when i was bedbound a few weeks ago and couldn't get up to hush my roommate's dog when he barked, i would just play this on my headphones at loud volume to keep from melting down from the sensory overload
slow motion by jennie and matt champion -- i play this on repeat to regulate myself. i've been falling asleep to it lately
em by mỹ anh (and the sister album called me) -- my partner pointed out in december that it's because i listen to a lot of kpop that i've been able to casually learn korean even without any formal study, so maybe since i'm trying to learn more vietnamese, i make a point this year to shift my listening habits towards viet music and see how far that takes me. at the end of january i heard a song from mỹ anh that was super my style and then she released the "me" album and i just kind of fell in love with it. i spent most of february with it.
grief chapter by mother mother -- got into mother mother during lockdown so maybe being housebound, and then eventually bedbound, took me back a bit. this helped me get through, especially "forever". i spent a lot of time crying to that song trying to find reasons to push through the pain. ("im trying to find forever but what do i do?" + "what do i do"x4 + "what do i do if forever isn't true?" ... it was maybe a prayer tbh, begging for release from the pain. i couldn't think much, and i couldn't sit up, so i couldn't work on my website, which was really holding me together in mid jan - mid feb. the second half of february was just trying to cling to sanity ig despite pain so bad i couldnt even think many days)
tìm lại bầu trời by tuấn hưng -- one of my fav viet songs ever. one of the songs that got me through my year long medical leave 2017, and i was drawn to it again now for some reason. idk why i like sad breakup songs... maybe it's like making up for apologies i never got??