joyride by kesha -- now THIS feels like the inside of my brain. i have to be careful when i'm driving and it comes on because it makes me want to go 90mph, do donuts, and hang out the window
midas touch by kiss of life -- the first dance i've learned in a while!! it took 2 weeks and i only got half of the song and i learned a lot of it sitting down, so it's far from perfect, but it made me happy
i feel you by NoSo -- they made a tiktok about this song, saying it was how they feel being chronically ill in their 20s while their peers can go to parties and have fun and stuff... and... yeah lol me toooo so it's saved
dear insanity by dpr ian -- this is what the inside of my mind feels like and i've been playing through the entire album at least once when i drive. when i was bedbound a few weeks ago and couldn't get up to hush my roommate's dog when he barked, i would just play this on my headphones at loud volume to keep from melting down from the sensory overload
slow motion by jennie and matt champion -- i play this on repeat to regulate myself. i've been falling asleep to it lately
em by mỹ anh (and the sister album called me) -- my partner pointed out in december that it's because i listen to a lot of kpop that i've been able to casually learn korean even without any formal study, so maybe since i'm trying to learn more vietnamese, i make a point this year to shift my listening habits towards viet music and see how far that takes me. at the end of january i heard a song from mỹ anh that was super my style and then she released the "me" album and i just kind of fell in love with it. i spent most of february with it.
grief chapter by mother mother -- got into mother mother during lockdown so maybe being housebound, and then eventually bedbound, took me back a bit. this helped me get through, especially "forever". i spent a lot of time crying to that song trying to find reasons to push through the pain. ("im trying to find forever but what do i do?" + "what do i do"x4 + "what do i do if forever isn't true?" ... it was maybe a prayer tbh, begging for release from the pain. i couldn't think much, and i couldn't sit up, so i couldn't work on my website, which was really holding me together in mid jan - mid feb. the second half of february was just trying to cling to sanity ig despite pain so bad i couldnt even think many days)
tìm lại bầu trời by tuấn hưng -- one of my fav viet songs ever. one of the songs that got me through my year long medical leave 2017, and i was drawn to it again now for some reason. idk why i like sad breakup songs... maybe it's like making up for apologies i never got??